February 2012
6 posts
So... This dream...
I don’t remember what happened exactly but there was a kissing scene with us in it… It was pretty weird cause I felt the butterflies in my stomach like every other time our lips touched. That’s when I woke up. It amazed me at how that moment felt so real. Thanks brain, way to get my hopes up.
A ghost from my past.
I’ve been waiting for this day to come. Haha I wanted to see what my reaction was when I saw your face again. HAHA Honestly, I thought I’d feel sympathy for you and what not… but I guess that wasn’t the case. The only thing that came to mind was, “Woah, she’s still alive?” Haha You’ve been out of my life for quite some time now and I’m...
Me: God can I ask you a question?
God: Sure
Me: Promise you won't get mad
God: I promise
Me: Why did you let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do you mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late,
God: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start,
God: Okay
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait,
God: Huummmm...
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call.....
God: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did you do that?
God: Let me see, the Death Angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me (ashamed).........
God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.
Me (embarrasses): Ok
God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I'm sorry God
God: Don't be sorry, just learn to trust me.....in all things, the good & the bad.
Me: I will trust you
God: And don't doubt that my plan for your day is always better than your plan.
Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, thank you for everything today.
God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after my children......
God knows what he does
January 2012
7 posts
I miss the sound of your voice… :/
Midterms on Monday and Friday?! What happened to all the days in between?! YUCK! ): Ruined my plan of skipping school Friday…
Sometimes I really want to escape from my mind. It comes up with the most absurd scenarios and gets me thinking way too much. Gets my hopes up and I just can’t stop thinking about it… Give me a break…. give me a break. Give me a break….. of that KitKat Bar! HAHAHA So lame. And when I’m on a roll for the day, life just says “NOPE. I HAVE TO REMIND YOU!”...
The last week of 2011.
Pretty intense.
Monday… Shopping with mommy!
Tuesday… Took my cousin to the bank and did more shopping! Finished wrapping presents because I lagged on that.
Wednesday… I drove down to Bellflower to give out some gifts for John, Jess, and Charles. HAHA I had fun wrapping their gifts actually. I wrapped John and Charles’ gifts in wrapping paper, then wrapped it with...
December 2011
14 posts
Every time I speak to your friend on the phone, he always tells me that the reason you call me is because you’re thinking of me and missing me. Haha He’s quite entertaining to talk to. He manages to slip a few compliments about you here and there into our conversation reminding me of how great you are. I’m always laughing during our conversations because he says the corniest...
Things that come to mind just when you're about to...
A few days ago, I had a moment of flashbacks before I fell asleep. It took me back to that exact moment when we were sending him off and he was giving everyone one last hug. When it got to the part where he was hugging me while I was crying, I began tearing up and didn’t realize it until it ended. I felt like I went back in time and went through that send off all over again. It felt so real....
I really want to rake up a pile of leaves then...
November 2011
33 posts
You.
Last night, I had a dream about going on a field trip with my classmates to do some research. Surrounding us were an army of people dressed in uniform. Army, Navy, Air Force, Marine Corps. All there to help us. This was an interesting dream I didn’t want to wake up from, but I did right as I was going to walk out of the area. When I woke up, take a guess at who came into my mind. It...
I feel like there's something I need to get off my...
People do get tired.
People get tired of constantly trying for someone who doesn’t do the same. People get tired of dealing with bullshit. People get tired of waiting on something that will probably not happen. People just get tired in general.
Watchchuckinmydeuces:
Dear God, I haven’t cried that hard in so long.
First 30 seconds: Already rebloged.
tears and chills.
Cried.
i’m literally sobbing and i can’t breathe
omfg… I CRIED ♥♥
God, I’m like bawling me eyes out. <3
Oh, Jesus, the guy with his dog, I can’t …
oh god I didn’t think I would really cry that much
HELD IN MY TEARS UNTIL THE MIDDLE.
AND THEN WHEN THAT GIRL...
